Maria-Petrelli

I'm going through the 5 stages of grief in reverse: When "it" happened, I was first like : "Yeah, that makes sense, I totally deserve it" (Acceptation). Then I had a long period of time where I was like : "Oh my God, that makes sense and I totally deserve it because I'm the worst living being ever created" (Depression) After that, I was like :"It makes sense, I totally deserve it because I'm the worst but if I do this, maybe I can fix everything." (Bargainning) And now, I'm like : "It does make sense, I surely deserve it, I could fix everything but I won't because the depression and bargainning phases drained my empathy and now I just want to rage and scare people into respecting my will." (Anger) Because I'm fed up. I'm fed up with pretending to give my consent because that's what litterally everyone do everyday and everywhere. Whether you like it or not, choice does not exist. Choice in an elaborated illusion that society use to make you responsible for your own doom, when